Before we said our first hello,
the time had already passed.
For when you held me in your arms,
I had gone to heaven to rest.
I felt angelic tears down my cheeks,
and I watched you as you weeped.
I wished I could have changed it all,
Your tears touched my soul so deep.
But mommy when you are sad,
Please be assured I know.
For death cannot take away your love,
it will only continue to grow.
Time and distance cannot erase,
a love and a bond so deep.
There is no bond that can compare,
and in your heart I'll keep
When you are feeling far away
and missing me so much.
Close your eyes and feel my wings,
their soft and gentle touch.
Or at night as you sleep,
I will join you in a dream.
You will see me standing close to you,
and we'll be lost within my wings.
So my dear Mommy,
as you go from day to day,
Find comfort in the knowledge,
I am not that far away.
Written by Erin and Quinn's mommy...Lori
with a special verse added by Zachary's mommy... Jennifer
At unusual times,
in unexpected places:
the supermarket, the ball game,
on the way home from work,
my eyes sting and my throat gets tight.
And then I know
that all I want
This is hard to understand.
I had so many dreams for you.
I've wondered how I'd feel
when you learned to say my name and yours.
I've thought about the day
when you would start school.
I guess I'll think about you
when the leaves begin to change
or when I see a snowflake land
on someone's stocking cap.
I'd like to watch you
squish mud right up between your toes
some moist, warm April day,
it's hard to know that it will never be.
I hurt inside.
I've missed you now, already.
it's hard to understand.
In fact, I don't.
I have some things
that need to be packed away:
blankets, jammies, shirts
and one special bear with a music box.
But I don't know how to even begin
to pack away all these dreams.
What am I to do
with the hopes and the plans
for all the tomorrows?